Thursday, January 20, 2011
This one is circa July, 2006, before I had facebook and myspace was still a "thing."
So, I've been one of your million friends (hyperbole, but not by much) on Myspace for awhile now and this is my first time messaging you. I've been watching Tourgasm and stuff, and I saw that you actually check your messages, so I thought that there would be a good chance that you would actually read this. I just wanted to tell you how cool I think what you do is. You're really funny and you have a remarkable ability to find the extrairdinary humor in what others see as mundane. I was watching Tourgasm tonight and it was by far my favorite episode. You said that you never really had any close friends growing up, but that you always had your family and that now you have some close friends. This kind of gave me some hope, because I'm the same way. I don't really have any close friends, but I have my family. This gave me some hope that I may someday be, for lack of a better word, normal,and that all my failed attempts (I mean this shit went so fucking wrong, the only thing you could do was laugh your ass off) at an effective life are building towards something greater. Thank you for being such a BAMF and giving me a little bit of hope. Keep on doing what you're doing. You are doing it right.
SUFI(in the good sense)
Holy shit. That was some depressing stuff.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Dear Jimmy Fallon,
I am a fan of yours and a frequent viewer of Saturday Night Live. I think you are cute, talented and funny (in a good way). You were wonderful in all of your MTV appearances, especially on the MTV 2001 Movie Awards.I think it is great when you occasionally play the guitar and sing during Weekend Update and I love the Sully and Denise sketches. I would really appreciate it if you would send me an autographed picture of yourself.
You can send it to:
I hope you stay on SNL for many more years and I hope you read this letter.
P.S. I gotta go to Cumbahland Fahms.
I mean, that "Cumbahland Farms" line, I know it was a reference to that Sully and Denise sketch they'd do, but man, it's just...wow. What was I thinking?
Fan letter 2:
You are such a hottie-bo-bottie. I saw you on the VMA's last night and you were so funny. Your parodies were wicked creative. I also got " The Bathroom Wall" the other day and I've already listened to it like a million times. It is so funny. My favorite tracks are "Road Rage", "Gotta Get A Fake I.D.", and "Roommates". I like your Beastie Boys take on "I Can't Play Basketball". I love your work on SNL and I can't wait to see you in the next Woody Allen flick. The day of the VMA's Carson Daly actually called himself a Massive Tool, modeled after your impression. I was wondering if you could send an autographed picture of yourself to me. I would very much appreciate it.
I have a few questions for you. Who are you looking forward to being on SNL this season? Who would you like to perform with most? What do you do to keep awake on Tuesday night when you write all of the skits? Were the pies supposed to hit you before you finished the news story about the clown? Did you know that Roberrt Deniro was going to be therefor your "Meet The Parents" review? What's your favorite movie? I hope you have a wonderful year on SNL.
P.S.:Enclosed is my address.
P.P.S.:There's a new anti-Yankees t-shirt that says "Yankees Suck" on the front and "Jeeter Swallows" on the back. Just thought you might want to know that.
What. the fuck.
I'm embarrassed to be me.
I never heard back from him, but I can't really blame him. These are the ramblings of a crazed fangirl, who apparently really wants a signed autograph or she'll die.
Over the past 9 years, my celeb crush on him definitely waned, but that didn't stop me from entering a video to his intern contest in 2009.
I may be certifiable.
I grew up in the northeast
My neighborhood was the right place, neither in the “bad” part of town nor the “rich” part, nor the condominium housing sections whose identical houses were reminiscent of a Stepford community. My neighborhood was a complete mix of houses whether they housed college students on their seasonal sabbatical from the real world or the elderly lifers who had nothing, but reality. There were no kids on my street rather just their grandparents, which came in handy during Halloween, for my sister and I, alone reaped the benefits. The no adults gave out neither pennies, nor toothbrushes nor staplers, but rather full-sized candy bars. Thank you, Jebus.
My house at five
It seemed that my house had been made for lead paint and any other type would shed from the clapboards in a year’s time. Lead paint having gone the way of snuff in the public eye, (stupid kids and they’re paint eatin’ habits) my dad was forced to foot the bill of repainting the house almost every year. That is until we got siding, my house lost most of its charm and became what looks like Barbie’s dream house if she had an affinity for neutral colors. The relatively hazardous structure of my house coupled with the new vinyl siding and the fact that we hadn’t had a fire extinguisher in the house for at least two years made me feel like I was living in a powder keg.
We had changed the carpet at least five times within eighteen years: from blue to beige to mauve each of which, I’m sure, one can still find in closets. From there it was beige burber then back to every ones favorite: mint green. Carpets which were meant to never be stomped down, but had flattened in less than a year after their installation. The old counterweight rope windows could not be opened unless the ropes were greased with wax and even then, the most stubborn ones, the ones that were painted shut, refused to budge. There was the “Crayola”-colored carpet which once presided in my room. The one that could have been seen if I ever bothered to clean up or weed my collection of stuff. The carpet looked horrible and came from Building #19, but it was mine and it was there.
I can’t help but long for those functionless windows and pointless doors with deadbolts that kept no one but a sibling playing “Hide and Seek”, out. The impractical wooden clapboards and the horribly uncomfortable not to mention ugly carpet from “Building #19” that lined my bedroom; I felt strangely proud of these things. The dilapidated back porch that I fell off once and which was great to make a sled run on when it snowed - I miss its peeling paint and crossed beam design. I miss all of these things mainly because they’re gone, not because they held any special meaning, but just because they’re gone and have left nothing but maybe a crack in the wall or a piece of photographic evidence that they were there. When thinking about where I lived and coincidentally, where I still live I can’t help but think about and steal a quote from the last episode of “The Wonder Years”:
“Things never turn out exactly the way you planned. Growing up happens in a heartbeat. One day you’re in diapers, the next you’re gone, but the memories of childhood stay with you for the long haul. I remember a place, a house like a lot of houses, a yard like a lot of yards, on a street like a lot of other streets. And the thing is, after all these years I still look back in wonder.” (Daniel Stern –“The Wonder Years”)
Now, five years after we moved out of that house, there hasn’t been a night that I don’t dream that I’m right back there. In these dreams I’m always happy to be there. I feel at peace with the world, like nothing bad could happen to me. That I have nothing to worry about because I am there and that’s all that matters. That’s all I’ve ever been trying to get to; back home. Back to where it all started, like if I could go back and live there, I could fix everything. In these dreams that I have, everything is wonderful, but just for a moment, then I realize; Something is off. Something is missing. Usually, it’s that the bulletin board that used to hang in my room has been stripped of its years of clippings or that the backyard is a beach in California or that the upstairs kitchen doesn’t have enough random clutter in it. It doesn’t matter what it is; there’s always some clue that it’s all just a dream and I figure it out. I always figure it out. And in that moment, I hate that I’m so smart, because I just want to be able to stay, but no one can stay home once they figure it out.